Hey peeps!
Life has pretty much had its UPs and DOWNs the past few weeks...
With the Os as well as other random stuffs...
It can be so "FUN" or well, plain torture, depending on how you view it

As for today, life is BORING!!!!!
Staying at home and just stoning or reading the books is so...*yawns*
Hmm...so why not i talk about something today?

Happiness.
So what exactly is YOUR take on happiness?
Getting what you desire?
Having the company of loved ones?
Being able to live this day to the fullest?

The definitions are endless, but what truly defines happiness
For me, it's plain and sweet
Happiness for me is seeing that those around me are happy.
If you're happy, then i am too!
That's what i tell to those who are close to me

Well, it's a fact!
Won't you feel good and content knowing that your friends are all hyped up for the day!
Won't your mood be dampened if you see your friend sulking all the way?
It really brings a great start to the day!

At least that's what i feel about happiness.
Sadly, I ain't able to devote to it all the time
I guess I ain't able to fully put myself in others shoes yet...
I still tend to think for myself which well, i'm ashamed of...
Sorry to those of you!
I will try my best! :)

Have a great day peeps~

I read this from Nippy's Blog and I found it VERY TRUE!
Unanimous Agreement! XD
Her blog can well, relate to stuffx! >.<
Be brave nippy!
YOU CAN DO IT! ^^v

As quoted:

A promise is a promise, at least that's what they say.
But welcome to reality, they're broken everyday.
I have nobody but myself to blame.

We are all guilty of saving old messages from someone who became really special in our lives and going to familiar places that gives us that small twinge in our hearts and smiles on our faces.
It's one of the most bittersweet feelings ever because every time that person crosses our minds, we remember the instances when we were happy and complete.

And it just feels like my insides are in this constant battle, where one part of me just wants to be happy, confident, fine without you.
But the other part.. the other part just wants you to see just how you affect me, and exactly what you’ve done to me.

I feel much better and well, more hopeful, SO I'LL CONTINUE BLOGGING! ^^
Just as shown in the picture, light is coming into my life~
However, it ain't gonna be easy, not one bit...

Learning anything, even to be independent, is never easy
Especially when you're no longer a kid!

Well, i know i have to...

I don't want to rely on others too much!
Well, cos i don't wanna burden them and i wanna be able to take charge of my own life! ^^


I guess i got to thank YOU for knocking that logic into me!
BUT...that doesn't mean we don't have to be close arhx!
I still want us to be very close! At least better than before! =)
I'll definitely depend on you still! But well, not that much >.<
Alrightx?
As I continue trying, do gimme your support!
It'd be greatly appreciated!
CHEERS~

This will probably be the last posts for now...
Well, at least until i sort myself out
And once i resume blogging, there'll be loads of posts at one shot, so keep watch!

I know that life is just so full of twists and turns!
One moment, you can be feeling extremely happy
The next, so dead and sad that you detest life
Well, welcome to my life people!
That's pretty much what i experience everyday!
And so far, no one can understand the stress, burden and pressure i'm facing...

Think that my life is perfect? BULLSHIT!
Think my life is carefree? YOU'RE DEAD WRONG!
Think I'm always happy and full of sunshine? THINK AGAIN!

Yesterday was well...another of such a day
1) Biology made me in high spirits!
2) Felt sucky for being a pain in the neck of someone whom i regard closely

I know that i said to you, and well others, to STAY HAPPY!
If you're happy, i'd be happy!
I was the one who told you to not care about my feelings
So i can't fault you...i deserved it
Though the chances of you reading this is slim, i want you to know...
Though this ain't the first time you're seeing this, please read on...

I really want things to be how they were previously
I'm really trying...
Whatever you request, i try my best to fulfill them...
I do all this, in hope that you'll see how sincere i am in wanting us to stay strong
I tried my best, hoping that you see the effort i put in to do them
It's just difficult, very difficult...
I knew what i was doing, i wanted to prove myself
But i know that your thinking of me has not changed
And no matter how hard i try, no matter how much i do, no matter how amazing...
If you don't see me in a different light, my effort is futile
Please tell me what I must do so that things will be like how things are previously!
What must i do...

Like you, I hate talking about this...but...
Knowing that we seriously lack understanding of each other
Knowing that you no longer feel comfortable even talking to me
Knowing that we are no longer as close as before
It sucks...a lot
I hate listening to myself say this...cos i'd be asking...WHY?

Seriously, what went wrong?
I really want things to be like how they were last time...
Sorry if I seem weak to you
But imagine if the person you're closest to and trust most is drifting from you and you have no means of stopping it...that's how i'm feeling right now
You might feel that i'm over-reacting
But i'm not, cos you know that you mean a lot to me rightx?
And if you are of such great importance, i will not rest knowing that the situation is on rocks
Please try to understand and see things from my point of view
I don't know if after seeing this, will you hate me or...
But at least i know that i've tried to tell this to you
It's sad that the only thing that i can do, and have been doing, is to pray

I'll miss this blog...
I've never parted with it before...
And now i am...well, at least it's only for a while...

There's good news to share with ya BRO!

Biology, I LOVE YOU!!!! <3
Am super duper happy today!!!
Biology has given me hope once more! ^^

I was able to do ALL of the questions!!! hehe
Am hoping to score above 72/80!
Full marks for paper 1!
And...WOOHOO! A1 for Biology!
I'll do you proud Mr Njoo!!!

Only 3 papers remain for the daunting O Levels!
The Paper 1 of all my three sciences!
Whether anot I get my A1 depends on them!!!!
I MUST NOT SLACK!
Well...maybe just for today XP

CHEERIOS PEEPS~

To Gerald BRO:
Hey BRO...
I guess now you'll know why I didn't message ya...
No good news for you...really sorry...

I seriously want to cry my heart's out today...
Today's the WORST day of the whole O Level period!
Today's killer were...PHYSICS PAPER 2 and GEOGRAPHY!

Physics Paper 2 just ruined my mood...
I lost a total of 22 marks, which is CONFIRMED!
Not inclusive of all those careless mistakes that i'll make...
DAMM IT....
The thing i blame myself for? Writing nano as -6 rather than -9!!!!!
I should really bang my head and die!
WHO IN THE WORLD MAKES SUCH DUMB MISTAKES?!
And worse still...
I forgot to do like...6 marks worth of questions!
It's PURE LABELLING AND I FORGOT TO DO COS I SKIPPED IT!
DAMM...i seriously detest myself...
HOW CAN I BE SO FRIGGIN DUMB?!

I told Ms Sultana about it and i can sense her disappointment...
I'm really sorry Ms Sultana...
I really really want to get an A1 for you!!!!!
I WANT TO!
AND I STILL WANT TOO!
Try as I might, I'm gonna force myself to do well for PAPER 1!
I've calculated...
I must score minimum 36/40 to even stand a chance of getting A1, provided that cambridge doesn't do moderation!
PLEASE GOD...help me find my way out of this abyss...
I don't want to disappoint anyone else further

GEOGRAPHY!
I seriously apologise to Mr Ng...
Sorry Mr Ng...i've let you down...
I BLOODY HELL SCREWED THE 8m ESSAY QUESTION FOR DEVELOPMENT!
I knew what to write...but only when the teacher was collecting the scripts!
DAMM...Natural vegetation was crappy as well!
Explain why forests act as "green lungs of the earth" 7MARKS!
WHAT NONSENSE CAN I CRAP TO EARN 7m?!!
I'm seriously scared that i can't get an A1 for my combined humanities!
GOD...PLEASE...LEAD ME TO SEE THE LIGHT...

Friday's Biology paper 2...
I don't want to disappoint Mr Njoo, especially since he's leaving...
I MUST GET AN A1 for him!!!!!
Please lord...